things i find difficult.

being on time
however hard i try, i just can't be on time. i either sleep in... or i get up early enough and spend too much time on the internet. i always end up leaving 5 minutes before i have to be somewhere even though it may take 15 minutes to get there. bad habit.

eating just the right amount
if there is food, i am going to eat it. if i order a meal and i get full after eating half, i will still finish it. it may be because i like food, or i don't like wasting food... or a combination of both. 

sleeping at the right time
i can never sleep at the right time. i always sleep really late and get up really early... then take an afternoon nap that turns into sleeps and then i can't get back to sleep at night again which makes me stay up even though i have to be up early.
a part of the reason for my bad sleeping pattern is my lifestyle. during the week, i teach and go to uni so i have to be up super early (6.30 on mondays and tuesdays) but then from thursday to saturday... i don't get to bed until around 5.30. hm.

making friends
i am super awkward and i don't know how to make friends. sure, i know how to talk to people and hold a conversation. sure, i know lots of people and i get along with them and sometimes, i even hang out with them. but that doesn't mean that they're my friends. i really have a hard time letting a person get close to me (even people who i consider my friends). i need more friends.

relationships
because i hate having someone close to me, i'm obviously bad at relationships too. i've been single for so long, i wouldn't even know what to do. i feel like even the amazing relationships end and someone always gets hurt. i'm actually a hopeless romantic at heart and i really believe in love, but from my own experience and from relationships around me that i've seen, it's a rare thing to be happy and in love.

finishing things i start
i start so many little activities and start being interested in so many things... but i can never go through with it. i have a scarf that i knitted for my friend 2 years ago, and it's still not finished. i wanted to learn guitar so i bought one, and it's just collecting dust in the corner of my room. i really need to get onto continuing these mini projects.

being motivated
i just can't get motivated to do anything. i say i'll go out for a run... but i won't. i say i'll get up early and clean my room... but i don't. i say i'll get organized... but i don't. i say i'm going to cook the whole week... but don't and i get burritos every night instead. i say i'm going to start reading more books... but i don't. i say i'm going to do all these amazing things... BUT I DON'T.

having a non-obsessive personality
if i find something interesting, i will research for hours on it. i watched "crazy stupid love" the other night and fell in love with ryan gosling... so what did i do? i went and looked him up on imdb and wikipedia and downloaded his other movies.
if one of my friends post an interesting status update, i might see where it's from and listen to the song or read the book it's from.
i thought lomography was cool, so i read up about it on the internet and bought myself a few cameras, which i never use BECAUSE I NEVER FINISH ANYTHING I START.
i get obsessed with things easily and sometimes i get over them quickly too.
watch out if i have a crush on you, i will stalk you on facebook forever.