rant.

if it's one thing that pisses me off, it's the department of immigration in australia.

they can seriously go get fucked.

i've been living in australia for the last 16 years, i'm 23 now so i've pretty much spent my whole life there and i consider that country my home more than my real home country.

and i am STILL not eligible to apply to become a permanent resident.

some people can live there for 3 years and apply straight away because they have been studying accounting or engineering or IT or if they have relatives that live there, they can pretty much apply too.

i don't have any family that live in australia anymore but because of that, my friends ARE my family and i might have to leave the country next year if i can't get a job and be sponsored.

to be sponsored, your employer has to pay $3000 and fill out a fuckload of paperwork just to have you.

who is going to choose that over someone who they can hire for free?

especially in public schools where they barely get enough funding to afford what they need.

when i was in high school and my dad had to go back to japan, my mum tried to get a guardian visa to stay with me until i finished my schooling. but because i was at a boarding school, those idiots at immigration told her she didn't meet the requirements because MY BOARDING SCHOOL WAS MY GUARDIAN.

i am so fucking scared of what's going to happen next year after i finish studying.
i've never been more worried and scared and angry about anything in my whole life and it has constantly been on my mind the last 3 years.
it actually makes me cry every time i think about getting kicked out of somewhere i consider to be my home.

sometimes, i really feel like i don't belong anywhere.
sometimes, i feel like i have no where i can call home.